Thursday, September 16, 2010

HIS SOUL FLINCHES AND...

Like glass, he is so…
Fragile, a whisper can strip
His VERY lost soul

A life upside down
NO escape but death life is
beyond his reach now

Where are his angels?
If only I could plead with
The universe as

As his life melts in
The darkness surrounding him
No sight just stillness

No choice but to be
Mad at the world praying that
It’ll be over soon

For his tomorrow’s
Sun will NEVER come for this
Very lost friend of…

If only I could
See him shine one last time see
His real essence such

Translucent words that
Drips between silent minutes,
His soul flinches and…

tgk ©

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

"LIFE IS BUT A DREAM"

I am CONSTANTLY being told/shown that this world I perceive as real is actually an illusion, not unlike a film being projected. Lately I find myself in a state of unrest where my relationship with Noel is concerned. I feel SO blessed to have him and I am thankful for each day we share together, but there is apart of me that feels selfish for him being here. Lately I’ve been thinking if Noel and I hadn’t met he wouldn’t have to deal with issues like being unemployed and having to subject himself to the xenophobic ways of the Bahamas.

I try to lose myself in that thought of us as little boys singing that mesmerizing, wistful lullaby that ends with the words, “Life is but a dream.” This represents the classic example of my deep, complicated truth hiding, like an underground stream, in an unlikely place. And it winds its way through my mind like a riddle FORCING me to consider its meaning. I HATE that I get SO involved in the projection of what life is, that I forget to see it for what it REALLY is. How do I get SO caught up in the illusion of life? Why do I let myself believe the illusion that I am in a life and death struggle of my relationship?

I think because Noel is me and I am him, I take on the things that he would take on and it is SO funny because when he went home earlier this year, I made him promise me that he wouldn’t stress out his employment situation upon his return. I felt SO close to the light of awareness that I have NO idea how I got caught up in this passing fancy…wondering how do I get back to the place where I live my life with detachment, compassion, and wisdom, without struggling on the “stage” play of life? Yesterday I couldn’t bring myself to understand that knowing that life is but a dream does not mean that I ignore it or don’t do my best with the twists and turns of our fate. Rather, I need to become that actor who plays his role FULLY even as I know it is ONLY a role, I MUST engage in the unfolding drama, but with a little more freedom because I know that this is not the totality of who Noel and I are.

Our relationship is more of an ad-libbing than it is like a play whose lines have already been written, whose end is already known. Like improvisers, we have choices to make and the more we embrace the illusionary quality of the performance, the lighter we can be on the planet, on others, and MORE importantly ourselves. We can truly play with the shadows cast by the light of the projector, fully engaging without getting bogged down. And I will do my best to remember that…

“Through struggle and diligence, we learn to extend ourselves past the arbitrary limits we once set and boldly accept challenges that will test our skills, abilities, and perseverance. As you strive to do your best today regardless of what duty you’re addressing, you’ll invite achievement and distinction into your existence.”

Monday, September 13, 2010

TRUE BLOOD: SEASON 3, EPISODE 12– EVIL IS GOING ON


The Season 3 finale of True Blood was kind of an understated affair and/or a mess — you choose! As in past seasons, a big-bad villain was dispatched (R.I.P., Russell), but instead of providing any semblance of satisfying closure, his death was a mere side dish to several other incremental developments that appear to be setting up Season 4. In the meantime, we're left with quite a few burning questions:
Is Russell actually dead? We see Eric silver and bury Russell in concrete, but certainly vampires have escaped from greater peril. Will Denis O'Hare be back for Season 4? My gut says no, but wouldn't it be something? His is the one story I'd like to see more of.

Where's Tara going? Her parking-lot flashback — to the macabre deaths of Miss Jeannette, Eggs and Franklin Mott — remind us that Tara has had it pretty tough of late. So who can blame her for wanting to leave town? I hope she finds some fun next season — she certainly has the right hairdo for it now.
What's up with Lafayette? That V trip isn't all that's ailing Lala. When he finally tells Jesus about all the freaky things he's been seeing (blood on Sam's hands, Rene choking Arlene), Jesus has some news of his own: he's a brujo, a male witch.

Did Sam shoot Tommy? After discovering that his brother has crossed him yet again, this time by breaking into his safe, Sam kind of loses it and goes after the little thief with a gun. We watch as Sam pulls the trigger, but clearly it's just a tranquilizer gun, right? There's no way that Sam is killing the only family he knows. He'll have no Season 4 story line!

Is Jason going to save Hotshot? Two things have made Jason's story remotely watchable this season: 1) his budding romance with Crystal and 2) his attempts at becoming a cop. In one fell swoop, the writers have, it appears, eliminated both, instead saddling him with what is sure to be the most leaden part of every episode next season: watching Jason save Hotshot. Ugh.

Is Hoyt and Jessica's new house haunted? Let's put aside for a moment that lame intervention that Maxine, Summer and Hoyt's old guidance counselor staged. When we last saw Maxine, she was buying a shotgun, presumably with wooden bullets, so I sure hope that Hoyt didn't send his ma a change of address card, because he and Jessica are moving in together! Their new place has but one flaw: a creepy babydoll left behind in the living room, sure to indicate impending doom.

Is Bill going to kill the Queen? Wait, I thought Sookie already knew that the Queen sent Bill? At any rate, she does now, and she ain't happy about it. Bill might redeem himself by killing Sophie-Anne Matrix-style, but wouldn't it be more interesting to see Bill on the outs for a little while?

Where did Sookie go? Sookie makes it clear that she has had enough of vampires, which, well, wouldn't you have by now? In response, she disinvites both Bill and Eric from her home and seeks solace at Gram's grave. Claudine, Sookie's fairy godmother (like, really), finds her there and sweeps her off to Fairyland. Now if we had seen a bit more of that during this hour, I might have less to complain about. But we didn't.

I'm a very forgiving True Blood viewer, but looking back over Season 3, I have to say, it's been kind of a letdown. There were satisfying moments here and there (most of them came courtesy of Denis O'Hare), but I had high hopes that Alan Ball & Co. would take the big pile of characters and plot strands they presented us with back in June and weave them together into a tight, logical narrative fabric.
But here we are in September and just one of those 34 story lines found closure — if Russell is indeed dead. On the flip side, Lafayette, Arlene and Jason — three characters of whom I'm quite fond — will all be saddled with the same story lines next season, and I'm already as sick of them as Sookie is of vampires. Let's hope the next nine months makes me miss Bon Temps.

What did you think of "Evil Is Going On"? Did you hanker for more closure? Are you excited to see how the pending stories play out next season?

Saturday, September 11, 2010

9/11


Think back on the 9 years and tell me what changes have taken place in your

life because of that fateful day....

Thursday, September 9, 2010

¿HOW DO YOU DEFINE A LESBIAN?

What does it mean to be a lesbian today? How can lesbians consciously express their masculinity/feminity without being seen as TOO manish on the one hand…or TOO womanly to be a lesbian on the other? What's the most loving way for a conscious Lesbian to express herself?

TODAY IS SUMMER LEISURE DAY!