THE SEXUAL ADDICTED LITTLE BOY

There is little boy I know that can’t seem to get enough sex. His life’s purpose is to get that next NUTT and the funny thing about him is that he hates being GAY. He can’t seem to stay away from that which is so unholy, that which makes him an outsider, even worse he is trying to find his place in that lifestyle seeking GOD knows what…So desperately wanting to fit in…I feel that he is disconnected during sex, its all about the MOTION & not the EMOTION! He is abusing the gift GOD gave to him; he is desperately seeking LOVE but looking for it in the wrong place. FOR HIM SEX IS ALL ABOUT THE EXCITEMENT & PLEASURE…HENCE HE HAS TO HAVE IT MORE THAT THE AVERAGE PERSON TO ATTAIN FULFILLMENT. Do you think he knows that God decided in Heaven one day that he should be born? He chose his parents, made sure that elements were in place to create a MAN as special as HE. WHAT A BEAUTIFUL SIGHT! He doesn’t realize that there's no one on earth exactly like him, he is a miracle of life, but he has lost sight of the beauty he has. He has forgotten that he start out our lives with the world in his hands. He is now blinded by the lack of love in his life, he is numb, it’s as if he doesn’t have any hope left and he can’t see the future…HE JUST SEES THE END! I know he feels so unworthy and don't know why, I just wish that he would search for answers. Find someone that doesn’t just want sex, someone who will listen- to whom he can shout: I FEEL DISCONNECTED, SAD & UNSURE. I JUST DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE! I know deep inside that there's got to be hope, but right now I just feel at the end of my rope. His actions say help me find the answer. Help me find my way. Plant my feet on the road of happiness today. He needs to believe that he is worth more than this-and climb out of his dark abyss. But, first he MUST learn how to love self and believe as I do that you're a bright, shining star. I wonder if he wonders if anyone is happier because he passed their way. Does anyone remember that you FUCKED them today? He must know that whatever his hand touches…he leaves fingerprints! On lips, on the nipples, toes, fingers, dick and ass leaving his identity behind. Oh GOD please where ever he goes today, help him leave heart prints! Heart prints of compassion of understanding and love. This is The Story Of his Life…Just wish he’d stop saying that he isn’t important, because it simply isn't true, the fact that he was born, is proof, GOD has a plan for him. The path may seem unclear right now, but one day you will see, that all that came before, was not who you really were. God wrote the book that is your life, that’s all you need to know. Each day that you are living, was written long ago. God only writes best sellers, so be proud of who you are, your character is important...HELL in this book you are the STAR. Enjoy the novel as it reads, it will stand throughout the ages, savor each chapter as you go, taking time to turn the pages…

NEVER LETTING ANYONE IDENTIFY YOU THROUGH SEX AGAIN!

for A. L. F.

BACK IN PLAY (RECONNECTING WITH OLD FRIENDS)

Every person that passes through our lives makes a contribution to our life stories. There are those who play large roles and make deep impressions, but sometimes a brief special appearance before life takes them in another direction creates a meaningful connection. It is a rare gift when they suddenly reappearing our lives after a long absence. Though the world may seem full of more people than we could ever know, we are often drawn to people with similar energy, which brings us together time and time again. On first meeting, the characters in our life stories may seem familiar. We may know each other from past lives or perhaps we merely recognize the energy of a kindred spirit. But when fate brings old friends back into our lives, there is always a reason. They may act as messengers, reminding us of apart of ourselves we have forgotten to nurture. They might appear to give us a chance to react in a new way to an old situation. They may even bring up unresolved issues so that we may complete them, giving us the chance to move forward on our life path. Whether old friends, previous romances, or once and future partners, their reappearance is more than mere chance. They may never know what they bring into our lives, but the renewed contact is a gift. If this hasn't happened to you, maybe you are meant to initiate contact by seeking out old friends. If old friends come to mind or into your dreams, use their appearance as an excuse to get in touch. If an old song or movie reminds you of them, reach out to share the gift of renewed contact. Wherever you falling the circle of connection and reconnection, be sure to look beyond the surprise of the moment to enjoy the deeper gift that this revelation brings.

A QUESTION OF BALANCE

One of the most beautiful qualities of an intimate relationship is the give and take of energy that occurs between two people. In the best-case scenario, both people share the talking and listening, and the giving and receiving of support,equally. Occasionally, within any relationship, the balance shifts and one person needs to listen more, or give more. Generally, over a long period of time, even this exception will take on a balanced rhythm; we all go through times when we take more and times when we give more. However, there are also relationships in which the balance has always felt one-sided. You may have a friend whom you like, but you have begun to notice that the conversation is always about their life and their problems and never about yours. You may also have a friend who seems to require an inordinate amount of support from you but who is unable or unwilling to give much in return. Over time, these relationships can be draining and unsatisfying. One option is simply to end the relationship, or let it fade out naturally. Another option is to communicate to your friend that you would like to create a more equal balance in which your concerns also get some airtime. They may be taken a back at first, but if they are able to hear you, your friendship will become that much more sincere. They may even thank you for revealing a pattern that is probably sabotaging more than one relationship in their life. A third option is to simply accept the relationship as it is. There are many one-sided relationships that actually work. One example of this is a mentor relationship in which you are learning from someone. Another example is a relationship in which you are helping someone who is sick, disabled, or other wise needy. In these instances, you can simply be grateful that you are able to help and be helped, trusting that the balance of give and take will even out in the big picture of your life.

APPRECIATING WHAT IS...(SAVORING YOUR PLACE IN TIME...)

In each stage of life, there are wonderful experiences one can savor and valuable insights one can absorb. Every new decade and, in fact, every new year brings with it wisdom, transformation, and growth, as well as ends and beginnings. Many people, however, believe that there is one age that eclipses the others. They expend energy trying to reach it and, once it has passed,trying to retain it. But wishing to be younger or older is a denial of the joys that have been and the joys yet to be, as well as the beauty of your life in the present. Holding on to one age can make it difficult to appreciate each new milestone you reach. Taking pleasure in the delights of your age, whether you are in your 20s, 40s, 60s, or 80s, can help you see the magnificence and usefulness of the complex seasons of your life. Each new year gifted to us by the universe is replete with exciting and unfamiliar experiences. In our 20s, we can embrace the energy of youth and the learning process, knowing it's okay to not have all the answers. As we move through our third decade, we grow more self-assured as the confusion of our young adulthood melts away. We can honor these years by putting aside our fears of aging and concentrating instead on solidifying our values and enjoying our growing emotional maturity. In our 40s, we become conscious of the wisdom we have attained through life experience and are blessed with the ability to put itto good use. We are not afraid to explore unfamiliar territory or to change. In our 50s, we tend to have successfully navigated our midlife reevaluations and have prioritized our lives. In the decades beyond, we discover a greater sense of freedom than we have ever known and can truly enjoy the memory of all we've seen and done...

TRY 2 N'JOY THE AGE U R @ NOW, 4 EACH AGE PRESENTS ITS OWN UNIQUE WISDOM 2 SAVOR!

WHEN A MERE MORTAL LOVES A 'PERFECT BEING'

Call it not love, for love to heaven is fled

Since sweating lust on earth usurp'd his name;

Under whose simple semblance he hath fed

Upon fresh beauty, blotting it with blame;

Which the hot tyrant stains and soon bereaves,

As caterpillars do the tender leaves.

Love comforteth like sunshine after rain,

But lust's effect is tempest after sun;

Love's gentle spring doth always fresh remain,

Lust's winter comes ere summer half be done;

Love surfeits not, lust like a glutton dies;

Love is all truth, lust full of forged lies.

***Shakespeare***

When this ‘MERE MORTAL’ is loved by his ‘PERFECT BEING’ I am a vessel of Spirit and thereby the bearer of Love and blessings. LOVE IS WHAT I AM, LOVE IS MY TRUE NATURE. Being in love with my ‘PERFECT BEING’ is the expression of Divine Love flowing through me as me. Love knows only itself and as I listen to its Divine voice guiding and leading me through life I am sustained and fulfilled. It doesn't fathom the illusions of hurt, pain and fear. I am created in the LIKENESS and image of Love and thereby endowed with the powers of Love. Everything, Everything, EVERYTHING is an expression of Love. God has created everything that was, is and will be. I have been given the power to do with it that which I will. I am a child of God; I am a child of Love there for I am Love MANIFEST! Now that I am loved by the ‘PERFECT BEING’ all the love that I share with my SOULMATE is returned to me blessed and multiplied because as I allow Divine Love to flow through me to him it mingles with the presence of Divine Love in him and flows back to me. Every act in our relationship becomes an expression of love because my mate reflects back to me that which I put out. I am now secure in LOVE and if my mate reflects back to me something, I don't like then his is reflecting back to me something I need to work on within myself. Like if my mate cheats on me, do I cheat back, do I leave him, do ignore it or do I work it out? Depending on where we are in SPIRIT will depend on my reaction. Since I know who I am in Spirit; as Spirit, I am gonna work this thing out because love won’t allow me to do anything else. Love is more than the "little things" someone does for me. It is coming to a point in life where I connect with the spirit of another in such a way where I care for him and I am concern about him. It is not being controlling or co-dependent but being there for someone regardless of need. When I am aware of myself as Love, I operate in a manner of love where infatuation becomes playful courting. When love becomes this powerful, it transforms the sexual act into a passionate exchange of spiritual energy. As I go through life I understand because of his love that I will have many soul mates. My family, friends and the men we meet are participating as soul mates to experiences and the growth we accumulate through our lives. It is up to me to find my BELOVED by actively experiencing live and enjoying it.

IF IT'S YOUR TIME...

I CAME ACROSS THOUGHT IT WAS LOVELY &; WANTED TO SHARE IT...

If you just had a week,

a month,

or even a year to live,

what would you do with the time you had left?

Would you stop living only to waist away,

or would you want to be free from the bonds of your illness

and take life into the palm of your hands to make it the best you can?

If it's your time to go,

would you still hold bitterness against all those that ever done you wrong?

Being the person you truly are,

would you in your heart of hearts find peace and forgiveness?

If it's your time to go,

would I find a smile upon your face everyday?

Or would there I find a frown in it's place?

Connie Sue Ratliff Copyright ©2006 Connie Sue Ratliff

I HAVE MET THE DEVIL...

MR. MAXWELL E. GIBSON A. K. A. (THE DEVIL)

I have escaped from the land of living and returned to where I belong…I have been working for 10 years in the business world and came to a place that made my previous employment a walk in the park. After being fired for being GAY to working for an ass that doesn’t know the real value of his employees, I sought employment that would put me on the track I desired to be on. I got the call to come for an interview scheduled for December 31st 2004, odd I thought but hey its business and things tend to be unconventional @ times. I got there and no one is there, went back home and left a message that I was there and they phoned and re-arranged another meeting. From that point on one would think that I take heed and the signs that were right in front of my face, but I ignored it and went to work for Colombian Emeralds Int’l A. K. A. Luxury Retail Limited. From the onset I witnessed firings & resignations every week, talk about employee morale. I didn’t understand it then but I know now that the stress I felt was due to my job. I couldn’t wait for 5:30 to leave that place, it was such a mess; I had a weak ass Manager who did nothing to help the situation or me. Everyday I would start my campaign to get out of there, I couldn’t take much more that and everyday I was told that I shouldn’t, I should stay stick it out don’t be someone that can’t stay on a job. To persons on the outside I had a fabulous job as the Assistant to The Chief Financial Officer, but in reality it was anything but fabulous. Dealing with a MAN who had a vicious streak a mile wide - and an ass to match, he was bitching, tantruming or squealing or normally all 3 at once. I have yet to meet anyone who is like him. He has absolutely no self knowledge, depth of character or one empathetic bone in his body. He spends most of his time bullying his assistant quite mercilessly and occasionally turns his attention to me. Isn't it remarkable that leadership is so frequently associated with organizational and individual problems? I know I should feel thankful, but for some reason I feel slightly bitter. When I got the news that I was being let go. I was upset with myself because I didn’t trust my own instincts, I didn’t do what I know I should have and now the universe did it for me. The way it happened was so unprofessional I was thinking WTF, it was a Friday after a training session that he felt the staff needed because we were all FUNCTION IDIOTS. I was summoned to the H. R. and was then told that they was going in a different direction, I was like okay thank you and goodbye, there was shocked and awe that I didn’t get angry, but hey I been there done that and moved on. I am sure that the other persons that was fired along with me felt the same way. When I think about the whole thing it makes sense in a way, because a lesser person would never have put up with the stack of indignities I faced. So after all that I am a better person for it, guess I got the last laugh. I now make sure that I work for a company that can give me the best possible chances at a successful career and if it doesn’t work for then I have process and release. I can’t work in fear and unhappiness; I will never again treat myself like that and will always seek to live while I am alive.